Tomorrow is the launch, and The Barter Babes Project will officially begin. There will be no going back.
For some reason, I can’t get the old saying “The Calm Before The Storm” out of my head. But that isn’t really what I’m feeling right now. Instead of “Calm” it’s “Restlessness” and instead of “Storm” it’s “Moment of Truth.” So I’ll call this
The Restlessness Before The Moment of Truth.
The launch of the Barter Babes Project is the culmination of everything I’ve been working towards for the past year. All the research, the time, the energy, the blatant disregard for my poor feet (see In Search of a White Wall), always pushing forward like a mad scientist on the brink of discovery.
And right here, right now, I’m feeling so many emotions. Right now, I’m full of hope. Right now I feel like anything is possible. Right now I feel like this project is going to make a difference! And right now I`m sooo nervous….
Me and The Barter Babes Project (my baby) are about to be sized up. Weighed and measured in the public eye. Up until now, the project hadn’t officially started. It was too early to tell if those who think I’m crazy for quitting my job to get paid in meatballs would turn out to be right. It was too early to tell if this project would be a success or land me flat on my face, and there was something comforting in that.
But after tomorrow – it’s on. The clock starts ticking and I have to get results in order for this to be classified as a successful project and not just a cool idea. The Barter Babes Project is a huge personal risk and I’m a Capricorn…… risks terrify me!! But, I`m more passionate about this than I am scared, and I want to make a difference!
I have to believe that The Barter Babes Project will be a great success, or else I’d give up now. But I won`t, because I know the next year is going to be full of ups and downs and I can’t friggen wait to see how it all pans out! Soo exciting!!
But I`m also not fooling myself. I know that in the coming year, there will be times when I doubt myself and the choices I’ve made, especially at 3:00 in the morning, when I can’t sleep and my feet hurt from the lack of a TTC fare. And in those moments, I want to be able to look back and read this and remember that right here, right now, on the eve of the launch, I absolutely believe in this project. And I’m not crazy for doing this!
So buckle your seat belts and take a deep breath because HERE WE GO